changing starting points

Ok so I have noticed that my starting point in having sex is to want orgasm. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience sex from the starting point of wanting orgasm. I now am changing my starting point in regards to sex to wanting so experience sex. Also I am changing my starting point to making vloggs. I am making vlogs to assist and support myself in my process while assisting and supporting anyone that watches them. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the starting point of wanting attention as my starting point for making vlogs. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire sex within/as the mind.